No, I'm not talking about any faithfulness I can muster of my own. I'm talking about the faithfulness of God despite all the crazy happenings around me and inside of me. He is faithful, even when it doesn't feel like it.
As we met last night with a woman who became our answer to prayer for help in childbirth instruction, I had a chance to recall so many Ebenezers from this past year. Ebenezers are just little moments where you realize that God has helped you, and you've made a marker there to remind you.
From a mysterious gift of money to an ivory sweater set, from a tough three months with an unfeeling midwife to a chance meeting with an incredible doctor in a park, from prayer times with some precious women to a three hour drive to a retreat with two strangers, from a broken freezer to a sudden cold snap enabling us to save most every piece of food, God has shown me that He is in the business of never leaving us or forsaking us.
I need that now, in these coming days full of uncertainty with battles to be fought against fear.
There may be snow piling up outside on our cars unequipped with winter tires or chains, and there may be no plows about town. There may be further boiler issues and other challenges yet to be faced with our living situation. There may be uncertainty with work, the economy, and our finances. There may be dozens of unknowns in the development of our wilderness ministry/business. But there is one thing that trumps all of that. The faithfulness of the One who loves me most rises above and beyond anything that could seek to destroy me.
And that faithfulness is what I'm going to cling to in these coming days full of mystery. I am not alone, and that is the most comforting thing ever.